Stella1958, I am praying for you
The same word that healed them will heal you that same power that's available to forgive them that same power is there to forgive you for whom the sun sets free is free indeed you are free and anything apart from that it's the enemy and you don't have to believe him because he can't tell the truth he is the accuser of the brethren and he will continue to accuse you because he know that you gave forgiveness but won't let you forgive yourself... God has forgiven you in Jesus name and that settles it and that's where you have to live at .you are free!
Stella1958, I am praying for you to forgive yourself. I also need this prayer.