MWBeloved, I am praying for you
Never fear you are alone, many are with you. You are desireable to others but you don't let yourself feel that way. Open yourself up to being who you are, I was were you are at one time I understand and I prayed and God finally answered, but I had to do my part. I became involved with groups I had not been with before, some outside of church. Went to exercise class and met others, things outside my norme and built up my own confidence and things changed. Just a thought. God loves you and so do I.
MWBeloved, I am praying for you