SalmaSalem, I lost my Father in 2019 due to stage 4 cancer. He was a God fearing Jesus follower. If your Father is what you say he is above, then God's Word clearly states there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus (Romans 8:1 and John 5:24). I hope this brings the peace you need to process the physical death of your Father here on earth. However, do not be afraid. His spirit is alive in Heaven and is with Jesus now. God bless and have a great day.
If you are feeling anxious or fearful those feelings are coming from your flesh. Your spirit produces love, joy, peace, patience and a sound mind. God says to be led by your spirit and crucify your flesh. Your spirit has unlimited power through Christ and has the ability to solve all of your fears and problems. Below is what God says about fear and anxiety Philippians 4:6-7 6 Be anxious for nothing but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; 7 and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus
SalmaSalem, I am praying for you