Mrjdh, I am praying for you. Know that only He is God, be still in Him and lean on only Him and He will make your path straight. May Father God always shine His light upon your path and bless you with his unending mercy, grace, forgiveness, wisdom and love. May our Lord Jesus Christ manifest Himself in your life and place a hedge of protection around you to protect you against the devil's schemes. Thru His stripes, may he heal you of all that ails you and give you the power and the courage to do what pleases God. May the Holy Spirit clearly show show Gods will and encourage you to do it.