Dear Que Vin, I pray that Father God and Lord Jesus will uplift your spirits, comfort you, and give you sustained peace. They are always with you. (See Deuteronomy 31:8) Sometimes we want to see our prayers answered right away, but God has his own timing that is best for us. Continue to pray and ask for patience. I encourage you to read Scriptures, deepen your faith, and fellowship with supportive Christians. Que Vin, you might want to also meditate on Isaiah 41:10, "Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed for I am your God. I will strengthen you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." Also, to answer some of your questions about finding God and sensing God's presence, you can go to the gotquestions.org website and look up, "What does it mean that God is with us?" You can also look up, "How can I know what God's timing is?" I hope this helps you. Remember Jesus's name is also Immanuel, God with us. May all go well. In Jesus's name, I pray.
QueVin, I am praying for you
Matthew 18:19 19 “Again, truly I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything they ask for, it will be done for them by my Father in heaven. I will be praying in agreement with all of your prayers from now on.