1Paladin1960!, I am praying for you
You can take Bach flowers to settle your nerves. They aren't expensive, between $10-20 per bottle, and if you know how to use them, they can last a long time. You might need 1-6 bottles, so total cost could run anywhere between $60-$120. However, once purchased, they will last for several months, maybe even a year or longer. But based on the things you've said, I still don't know whether or not that is too much money for you. What is your financial situation? Why is it so dire? It would help if I knew more. Can't you do anything? You say you are in a nursing home. Can you work from home?
1Paladin1960!, I am praying for you