GoldyLocks345, I am praying for you — there is good reason for hope! Our brains can be complicated places in these stressful times. You are not alone. You are a valuable person who is loved by God. In addition to the prayer strength that you receive here, you may want to seek additional relief through local public wellness services (such as a public mental health clinic) or by contacting your local NAMI office. NAMI stands for National Alliance on Mental Illness. But the focus is really on health and well-being. Prayers for you. Amen.