Kabaur2020, I am praying for you
I'm not saying that you don't need prayer, but you also might benefit from some Bach flowers. If you google them, they are basically a set of remedies discovered in the 1900s by a British doctor named Edward Bach. He believed that there were flowers in nature that could naturally alleviate the mind of some of its ailments (depression, anxiety, etc). They are very inexpensive, so you really have nothing to lose by trying them. Just give them a whirl. You can look up the flower remedies online, and if you match the emotions you are having to the certain kind of flower that you see, you might get better. I have tried them, and they worked tremendously. I feel that my personal feelings of sadness and hopelessness were very much improved. I recommend that you try them too. Just look up a Bach flower quick reference guide and choose the flowers that you think might be right for you.
If you are feeling anxious or fearful those feelings are coming from your flesh. Your spirit produces love, joy, peace, patience and a sound mind. God says to be led by your spirit and crucify your flesh. Your spirit has unlimited power through Christ and has the ability to solve all of your fears and problems. Below is what God says about fear and anxiety Philippians 4:6-7 6 Be anxious for nothing but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; 7 and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus 2 Timothy 1:7 7 For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. Philippians 4:13 13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me John 8:36 .So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed