Dear Firefighter3437, I pray that you will draw closer to Father God and Lord Jesus and ask them to cleanse you of all of your anger and hate. Let them replace it with sustained love, understanding, forgiveness, and patience. Firefighter3437, I don't know whether you have been saved or born again. But if you haven't, and if you have faith in Lord Jesus and believe in the gospel message and the significance of the shedding of his blood while he was crucified, and if you confess that you're a sinner to Jesus and you need him as your Lord and Savior, and you're willing to surrender your life to him, then you can be saved or born again. Ask Lord Jesus to save you. Once you're saved, you'll become a new creation in Christ. You'll be indwelled by the Holy Spirit who will help you to transform your heart and mind so that you'll have a strong desire to please Father God and Lord Jesus in your daily Christian walk. I've given you a quick overview of being saved. I encourage you to talk to a pastor about being saved or being born again. For now, you can go to the gotquestions.org website and look up, "How can I be saved?" and "What is a new birth?" I hope this helps you. May all go well. In Jesus's name, I pray.
Firefighter3437, I am praying for you
Firefighter3437, I am praying for you