Allenrosem..God understands everything you are going through. He promises that if you ask in faith, it will be done. You dont have to try so hard, just ask, and trust that he will answer all of your concerns. I pray that God would give you his peace and comfort you with his Love. In Jesus name
allenrosem, I am praying for you. May God open your eyes so that you could do better today then yesterday, and to do better tomorrow then today. But you have to do your part. God bless you richly!