annabanana417, I am praying for you
Ive also had to fo a lot of reflection and soul searching. Still dont have a good grasp of who i am but I am closer than I when I first started. Sobriety and abstinance was hard. And losing a girlfriend was hard. Its actually like you have to go withoit yourself. When you lose yourself. You lose your wife or gf. You chsnge your habits. Stop doing drugs. Stop drinking. Taking up prayer is great. And studying scriptures is great. But its sort of like I lost myself too. I lost myself when I lost my gf. And I never fully recovered myself. Sort of living a little bit hollow. But there's God and he will restore me. Give me new life. A wife and a new identity. But its hard you know. Some people go through life already knowing who they are and sone us have to figure it out. May Lord Yeshua and the Father watch over her and helping Jade. Learning how to leave myself behind. My old self. And finding my new self hasn't been easy. But the hope and promise remains.