Milo1234, I am praying for you
The Christian religion is a cult. There are moral things in it, but there are also lies in it. I'm not saying that you can't take out of it what you need. Just don't confuse it with absolute truth because it isn't. You need to look somewhere else in this world for the meaning of life. The Bible can only take you so far. My advice to you would be this. Take the good out of the Christian religion that it offers you. But then leave the religion itself.