GoldyLocks345, I am praying with you that God guides you to love those who mistreat you as Jesus said, "love your enemies" and at the same time you know the truth that you are a good person. In the name of the Creator, this is done. Amen.
Rom,8:35-39 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? 36 As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter. 37 Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us. 38 For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come 39 Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord
GoldyLocks345, I am praying for you