Wildflower87, I am praying for you. I pray that you will come to know the loving tender kindness of Jesus Christ. I pray that God will remove everything the devil has planted in your life that would cause you not to trust God. In the name of Jesus and his shed blood on calvary, I come against any generational curses operating in your life and I speak the word of God over you that says he who God blesses can no man curse and those who come out to curse you will have no choice but to bless you. Take care and be blessed.