MirandasT, I am praying for you. God knows what is going on! He is real and your prayers are heard. God is looking for us to have a relationship with Him. The hard times are the times we listen to Him the best. I pray for you to spend time with Him in prayer. An hour per day!!! Sounds like a lot of time in prayer! But He listens to you when you pray, but more importantly you change when you pray! You surrender in prayer and you listen to Him!! Love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your mind, and with all your soul and strength! Then love your neighbor as you would be loved. Amen.