sweet83mama, I am praying for you
Continue in prayers praying over others requests nightly. And listen or read the Bible or find audio and listen to scriptures nightly and continue in faith. The Heavenly Father and Lord Yeshua will steer you and direct you over the coarse of time so you can have an opportunity. May Lord Yeshua and your Father bring it to pass for you as you go along in your faith.
Understand perfectly what you want.