Hello, if you have a Bible, king James version, read psalms 91 and 150. From there read proverbs, psalms, Luke, and Matthew. Pray every day. Meditate with God, Jesus Christ and the Holy spirit on your mind. Thank God every day, thank Jesus Christ because He paid the price and the Holy spirit who help you to rise to see another day. I'm so sorry that you are going through so much. Ask God will to be done for you and your situation. I hope your prayers will be answered by God's will, grace and mercy.
1Paladin1960!, I am praying for you