1Paladin1960!, I am praying for you
Also, I don't know how exactly to tell you to do the MD factor because I don't know your weight or age. But if you order the book online and read it, it will explain how to do it. The same thing with PhD weight loss. You need to talk with these people, or at least read the book, and they will tell you how to lose weight. This is much easier than you think it is, and you will lose weight even without exercise (although exercise is still healthy and should be a part of our lives). The point is you will lose weight just by eating the right things, and a lot of Americans don't know about that. That is why so many of us are overweight. You can get this under control. Just follow the principles in that book (the MD Factor by Dr. Caroline Cederquist). You can order this book from Amazon, or at least search for her on Youtube. She has made some videos explaining what you can do.
Don't worry. Something will give. You just have to stay calm and focused on your goals. Don't worry. We all get discouraged sometimes. But keep on going, and you will make it.