I trust that you and your families have been okay through these unprecedented times.
I had written today’s meditation just as the pandemic hit my side of the world, and since then it has been a whirlwind of changes and adjustments.
Walking through the streets, I’m amazed at how I can identify people I know and they can identify me even when we are all behind masks. But it’s not just our face that identifies us, it’s our mannerisms, voice, clothing, etc. It seems like we’re more transparent than we think, and our lives are always on display.
I think the toughest thing for me has been striking balance between my honest frustration and modelling what is expected of me as a wife, mother, daughter, friend, and fellow human being. At times it can feel like I’m being less than my true self.
My family is the first to see me. I try to lead a life of forgiveness and love which I see in my children. In the same way, any time I see a questionable action in them it causes me to evaluate my thoughts and actions. Why did they behave that way or do that? Have I put a sour taste in their mouth with my behavior?
Sometimes introspection is scary, especially for a perfectionist like me. But it’s necessary in the same way that it is necessary to taste a meal as it cooks to make sure it has the right amount of everything it needs. After all, who wants a flavorless meal?
I think it’s okay to be frustrated, tired, or anxious. As long as I can be honest with myself, re-evaluate my feelings, and remember to choose to be all those things God is making me to be. After all, who wants a “flavorless” Amorelle?
We all have something to add to our corner of the world . . . may we never lose our flavor.
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I join many of those who will pray for you as you seek to discern what you are called to be at this moment. May God grant you the courage to fulfill that calling. May we all open our eyes and see the misery, open our ears and hear the cries of God’s people, and, like God through the Lord Jesus Christ, be incarnate amongst them.”
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