by Juanita Campbell
God, forgive me for exalting my agenda,
my thoughts about how things ought to be,
my opinions about what is good or best for me.
God, forgive me for seeking pomp and circumstance,
parades, approval, awards, certificates, bonuses, and such.
They have left me drained.
Why have I given my life for that which has not satisfied?
I have dreamed of the attention,
the light of the big stage, the acceptance
and it has left me bitter, heartless, angry,
filled with resentment.
I have wandered from the way.
The light of my eye has gone out, and it is very dark.
God, forgive me. God rescue me.
God, grant me the ability to know your way.
God, grant me the ability to know your joy.
God, grant me the ability to know your love again
even in this place.
Permission is granted for use in corporate setting. Copyright © 2011 The Upper Room. Used with permission.
Juanita Campbell Rasmus partners with her husband Rudy in marriage and ministry at St. John’s United Methodist Church in downtown Houston. They have 2 grown daughters. Juanita developed an innovative, therapeutic art program for the homeless, theartprojecthouston.org.
"Many of us are used to the idea that we might speak to God or to Jesus. Maybe at times it feels like shouting into the darkness or whatnot, but it’s not hard to do—at least as an imaginative exercise. What’s harder—even imaginatively—is to try to hear Jesus speaking to us. Are we just making things up? Are we just using Jesus as a puppet to say whatever we want to hear?" READ MORE