I had no idea that I was worrying. There was the issue of my son, was God going to heal him? There was my career, was I going to get back on track after a 6 year hiatus? There were just so many issues hanging around in my head.
Even though I was praying about them, they had a way of occupying my thoughts throughout the day. One night, I had fallen asleep thinking about these issues. At about 5am in the morning I was woken up by an almost audible voice – ‘Seek ye first the Kingdom of God, Matthew 6:33’ was all I heard. I looked around and found that I was the only one awake. I knew it was the Holy Spirit. I jumped out of bed, picked up my Bible and began to read the whole of Matthew chapter 6. When I got to Mathew 6:25 and I read, ‘Therefore I say unto you, take no thought for your life,’I realized that I had not been doing the word. That scripture came alive to me.
I was taking thought for my life. I was worrying about things that worry couldn’t change. I was casting my cares on God but taking the cares right back at the end of the prayer. I was weighed down by burdens I should not have been carrying in the first place.
Immediately, I repented of my constant worrying. I mentioned all my cares to God that morning. I named them one after the other. All my fears. All my worries. All my thoughts. I gave them up to Jesus one by one and I promised him I would never take them back again! Since then, I have never had a care in the world!
Do I still see the symptoms in my son? Absolutely!
Do I have my career and finances all sorted out? Nope.
Are the issues still hanging around? Yes, (well, some of them) but I have learned to leave cast burdens on Jesus. I do not take them back on myself. When troubles come up, I speak out to remind myself that I walk by faith and not by sight, I say out loud, ‘That issue is with Jesus now, I have no care in the world!’
Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus (Philippians 4:6-7 KJV).
I join many of those who will pray for you as you seek to discern what you are called to be at this moment. May God grant you the courage to fulfill that calling. May we all open our eyes and see the misery, open our ears and hear the cries of God’s people, and, like God through the Lord Jesus Christ, be incarnate amongst them.”
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