I have experienced and survived two more Mother’s days since my meditation that described Mother’s Day 2016. Every Mother’s Day since has been a painful reminder that I no longer have my son, Chad, with me but each one is also a reminder of God’s love and provision for us in our future beyond this world. As there are absolutely no guarantees in this life, it’s all the more vital that we appreciate and cherish what we have RIGHT NOW. What we have RIGHT NOW is this day, each other, the lives we are living, and, above all, the love we both give to and receive from each other.
I am writing this on May 24, 2018. Tomorrow evening, I will be going to a memorial service for one of my son’s best friends. She died on May 19, 2018 at the age of 33. Her death was very sudden and unexpected and right now, her cause of death is unknown. She leaves a three-year-old son behind who has no way of understanding what has happened or why and right now, his future appears to be very uncertain.
I have known this young lady since her childhood and she and I have been through a lot over the years. She has been, in some ways, the daughter I never had.
Right now, my grief is very heavy, but I also know that it’s a victory for her . . . those of us who have been left behind are grieving, but this young lady really does fly high now. She is with my son and her other family and friends who have passed before.
As I’ve never experienced it, it’s hard to imagine how this young lady feels about leaving her three-year-old son behind. I hope and believe that she now sees the big picture and has a deeper understanding and acceptance of what is, and what will be, than we could ever conceive while we are in this life.
I don’t know if I’m making sense or if I seem to be rambling. All I know is that God is absolutely in control and God's love ALWAYS shines through no matter how dire the current circumstances appear to be. I thank God for being with me as my own faith continues to grow, evolve, and develop. I am very excited by the thought of what the future will bring and how sweet it will be to reunite with the loved ones we have lost.
God bless you all!
— Jenny Donaldson
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