Scripture Reading: Matthew 11:25-30
“Come to me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” — (Matthew 11:28-30 NIV)
Many nights I plop into bed bone-tired and recall a past time when I've not just been tired, but weary in my soul. Bone-tired is not like soul-tired. The first needs only a nap and a long night's rest to recover. The other means I need God's hand to hold me up.
In 2009, my heart decided that it no longer wanted to beat in rhythm. As a musician, I'm well aware of what off-beats do to a melody. First came a cardiologist visit, a Holter heart monitor, and then a diagnosis. The next few months proved that modern medicine, although advanced, does not always produce the desired outcome. What looked to be a routine SVT (Supraventricular tachycardia) was anything but, and my body refused to respond to the newest heart medications on the market. I was referred to a specialist for immediate surgery.
Life seemed as messy as it could get. I went from a home-schooling mom of three boys to an almost-expert in medical terminology and paperwork. I had an overflowing medicine cabinet that looked like a pharmacy. The surgery proved to be unsuccessful. I sat in the doctor's office two weeks later and was given my discharge papers as his patient. I listened to his words, “I've done all I can for you. Get your affairs in order.” One thing came to mind as I lay my head on my steering wheel a few minutes later and cried, “Come to me all ye who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”
Looking back, I just knew it was the end, but I had no idea God would use this in a mighty way in my future. I dug my heels in, prayed every prayer from God's Word that I could find and started over again when I got to the end of the Bible. My heart continued to beat out-of-control at a moment's notice, but I kept going after each episode, refusing to waste one moment of the life I was given. God eventually moved my husband, me, and our family later that same year. My new doctor in our new town decided that I should try an old heart medication that worked a little differently. He worked tirelessly with me for the next year to get my body to accept a dose that would stabilize my out-of-control heartbeat. It finally worked.
Whatever it is that you're going through today, I urge you to grab your Bible, dig your heels in, and “Come to God all you who are weary and burdened, and God will give you rest. Take God's yoke upon you and learn from Him, for God is gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. God's yoke is easy and God's burden is light.”
It's been 9 years now, and I'm still alive and praising God as I traipse through windy mountain trails, swim laps three days a week at the Y, and write for God — my Savior, Redeemer, and Comforter — at From One Woman's Heart to Another:
"When I became a parent, I struggled to find God within the chaotic world where I now lived. I was used to contemplative prayer, to silence and service and listening for God’s still, small voice in quiet, hidden spaces. Suddenly none of my life felt quiet or hidden – it was all loud, messy, and exposed." Discover more.